Go bold or go home

The call to courage got a whole lot louder in 2017.

I started to lean out of my career in 2017.

I started to choose an easier path in my career around 2015/6. I was paid a couple of hundred a day to resize trainers, pictures of trainers. Everyday I'd go into work and make images of trainers in different sizes for a well-paid fee. I was buying my first property at the time so it suited me just fine. I had made a lot of money with very little responsibility. Wasn't that just peachy? It was quite a temptation to settle for this easy life. There was very little room for expression, strategic thought or for my intellect to be engaged. I had long switched off. I could do this for a number of years I thought, and build up a nice nest egg. Consciously choosing this life was slowly eating my head and heart away. It's a common type of "design" job that robs energy, passion and confidence. You're left with a husk of a portfolio and very little to enthuse about. (Aside from nice stuff you bought for your home.)

As the temptation grew, there was a conflicting thought that kept raising it's head. You've got to be bolder. You're more courageous than this. Go bold, or forget it, go home. It was stark. It jarred through the stuff I was choosing to settle for. It demanded a lot more from me, but not in an accusatory way. Just, you can do better darling, kind of way.