SHEOL BOOK 1 - My own self portrait, without my mask

"He has really been there." - Total Recall

It is a line that has stuck in my head for 10 years now. It has taken me 10 years just to face what I went through...Hell itself.
This is the portrait I could not draw for the truth of it, my own portrait.

This is for all those who 10 years ago asked me how it felt to be broken? What was I going through? How did I lose everything I held dear? How could such a beautiful family be broken and destroyed? Could they help?

I couldn't answer then because how could I rightfully tell you?

I can only show you. This is where the 5 Books For God, and "THE FOREVERMORE WAR" series started, a question from one of my five Angels, Mrs. Christine Needham, when I told her I was hurting so bad, I could not escape it, my heart, my body, my life was besieged...I hurt so much. She told me, "Would you please draw me how you feel?"
That is when it all started.
With my fall.
This...this is how I felt.
You think you know Hell, you don't...I wish I didn't. I would give everything I own to go back to having a nice house, a wonderful family, children again...but it is not what He has called me to do, what He has shown me.
And when God calls you...you go.
He has asked me to take you to a place I do not want to go.
Please, please consider supporting my cause for only $1. I know it is a lot to ask, to see me go through Hell, and yes, it is graphic. Those who know me, will not be able to stomach it, nor have the bravery to make it to the last book, which, I can promise, will be the most beautiful thing you will ever see, or read in your lift time as a Christian, atheist, or wherever your allegiance to religion lie.
But I cannot do this without your help.
This is me, look upon this picture, and see the true anti-hero, the broken, the fallen, the torn, the ones God uses to be a prophet, a hero, a warrior, a fighter, a lover, a shield to his loved ones, and a man who will suffer whatever it takes for his daughter to be safe...even to venturing into Hell.
Now you know why I wear the mask.
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