Fantasy/Insanity
Originally posted to DeviantArt on June 5, 2016
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I am quite pleased with how this turned out! Looks much better than I thought it would, to be honest.
Artistically, I worked a little extra hard to get a more realistic outcome. I even used a few pictures of my own face for the basic lineart before I bothered to stylize the eyes and other features. (Aside from that though, this is actually all from scratch in photoshop!) Once I had the stylized lineart, I tweaked it just a little more, added the hair free-hand, then the teardrop & half smile, the pens, colored all that in, played with a little filtering with the lighting, and then added the final ink "drizzles," for want of a better word, for a little more ambiance.
I went back and forth a few times cropping and playing with it a little more, but in the end I think this version is best. I am seriously considering doing something to make a wallpaper out of this, since I am so pleased with the final product!
Appearances aside, this is more of a conceptual piece for me, which I don't really do often. If ever, actually.
The title, I think, is the best place to start with explaining this one: My Fantasy, My Insanity.
In reference to the fountain pens down the middle, that's what writing is for me, as it stands: Both my escape into a world, a universe of fantasies and my most daring of dreams, and also the thing the drives me mad, my obsession and addiction. For me, that can also be said about art, but it's much more prevalent in writing.
Seriously, I was about to lose what's left of my mind the other day after my Phys. Science exam, all because I couldn't take my thoughts just bouncing around inside my head after finishing two books, and I didn't have any clean paper with me. I had to resort to digging through my bag and very sparingly writing on a sheet I found lurking in there. That is not normal.
I think we all have our passions like that; Double-edged swords, of sorts.That's why there's a smile drawn on one side of her face, and a teardrop on the other. The fantasies build you up an make you smile, but the addiction tears you down to your breaking point.
Originally, I thought about either doing a picture that was split with an actual line down the middle and had a genuine smile on the one side, maybe a genuine tear on the other, but I thought doing it this way, with the pens and the drawn on features, would lock in the point a little more. And I could just see it so clearly in my mind, too!
Ah...I've got to stop thinking so much. Overthinking = Dangerous Pass Time...Hmm...As dangerous as writing, I suppose...